I should be blogging about Annika. March 21st was her 3rd birthday. I think about blogging about her everyday. But today what I want to blog about is Nathan. As eager as I am for Emma and Anson to participate in the ALL program. I am concerned about Nathan. He doesn't do well with change.
Today Anson told me that he and Nathan eat school lunch together almost everyday. And they play at recess together, though, as Anson tells it, it's often at his inconvenience. Anson is a good brother. How will Nathan do when he doesn't have Anson to watch out for him and stick up for him?
Once my nephew, Spencer (who attends school with my kids), found out that Emma and Anson made it into the ALL program, he declared that he won't be walking home with babies. He's going to walk home everyday with his pal, Paul and NOT Nathan. (His own little sister, Charlotte, will be a 1st grader next year and despite that, he is apparently not walking home with her either.)
I try to calm myself. To figure out how I can get kids home at the same time everyday from two different schools. There are options. I could stagger the kids--having two start and end times every day. Although that is easier in some ways, it's harder in others.
I am so excited for the older kids. But then, everyone says, "Have you heard about the homework?" And my eyes widen like saucers to match theirs and I think, Am I up for this?
And I worry about Emma and the math. And I worry about Nathan some more. How do I do two back to school nights, two choir concerts, two Reflection's programs, two...? But then I realize that anyone with a child in elementary and one in junior high has the same problem. It's silly to worry. I'll do the best I can. I'll get help where I can. Wendell will get off work when he can. And we'll be OK.
It's hard to embrace the new without morning the loss of the old. My three big kids will never walk home together from school again. But their minds will be fed in a different way. All of the enrichment activities, I want to do for them, will be done at school. It takes a burden off that way.
Of course we can always quit. At any time. This isn't set in stone. It's just one year. One school year. To see how the program goes. To see what happens.